a call to loved ones made me feel as tho i dont deserve to go on a holiday this july, wells, sortof. was just informing them of the stuff i will be doing when i was reminded of the need to prioritise. that i should focus on this last bit of exams first. i wanted to cry even tho i knew it was in my best interests that it was spoken. but all i was trying to do was to let them know, as i should, so there wont be any nasty surprises ahead. and that once i got all of it settled i will focus everything on the exams. i was trying to be responsible. and it hurt. but knowing what came before and understanding what will be coming after this point in time, i will keep it in mind but stick to it. only time will reveal everything. only time.
sorry.
