home is but two months away.

was chatting with some uni frens and i thought of the people back home. chats like such always raise the same thoughts and this was no exception. this year of study is almost coming to an end. other than the exams, there's just nothing much left in the way. how would it be like? my longest time being away from home, family and frens. how different will things be? different but still the same. lol.

time has left us no choice but to grow up. slowly but surely we are all being pushed foward. pushed into and out of school, and into the working world. birthdays come and go. people too. by dec, most of the gal peers would have finished their uni education and would have begun their next phase of life. what will this new phase bring? scary and exciting at the same time. suddenly i realise i need to rebuild my vocab. its getting worse. :(

*gathering my thoughts*

i miss home. not in the 'i am so gonna die if i dont go home soon' way, but more of the 'silent but definite longing to be in the company of close frens again' way. i also realise i do not have a best fren. :( which is sad. i mean, there are lots of people that know me well in certain ways but i do not and cannot tink of anyone that knows all about me. that is in the way some best frens do. i spose its just the way i am. i belong nowhere and can almost' blend in anywhere. that was the way i wanted things to be when i felt left out i spose, during some phase long long ago. its both good and bad, once again depending on how one sees it. i'm not saying that i aint happy with the way things are, having people around that care and all. just that one sometimes want a best fren that you can trust your life with. wells, i have people that i trust my life with but they arent the closest to me. lol. hmm..after typing all this crap i tink who i want is my someone special. :P that would fit the bill perfectly wouldnt it? someone that knows all and almost is all. wOoOoooo.. but. it aint the right time. nopeys.

meanwhile...i've to cook n have dinner, shower and study. erm...watch aussie idol and queer eye! laters! :)